I feel like a constant roller coaster. Sometimes I’m half way to the moon, and other times I’m ready to crawl in the ground. I know I’m not the only one, but with only my voice screaming inside my skull it gets pretty lonely with the echo (..echo..).
Well this is one of those weeks.
A day where your heels drag and get caught in the rope you keep looped at the hip for a “just in case”, while watching repeat episodes of shows that are so far fetched a crack-addict’s dreams are more realistic.
But of all the dreary days I’ve wasted indoors brooding under blankets and candle light, nothing compares to the horror of having to run errands when you’re in this mood.
When the cashier wishes you a Happy Holiday (because it’s Canada Day of course, idiot) and the only thing that makes sense is to kind of brush it off because you can’t remember what time it is, let alone what the date is and assume Summer Holiday. Or forgetting to lock your car door almost every time you got out, and then forgetting where you parked it and fretting that someone stole it because (of course) you remember not locking the doors.
Not one of my best holidays, I admit. But I lived, and managed to pick up my fixed-ish tablet, two new books, a trough of ice cream (Orange Sherbert, go away spell-check) and pizza.
I’ve never worried about how many of these days I have because I usually snap out of them pretty quick. I used to worry that I needed to be happy all the time – that I needed to figure out how to get out of those blasé-spells, but I’ve decided that that’s just me. It’s something I go through and I deal with, and that it’s okay.
If you want to kick-jump yourself back to normal there is an infinite number of tips and tricks and advice online that you can follow, and skipping your mood swings is okay too.
Do what works for you, and what feels right for you. Either way, whether you turn the frown up-side down or disappear from the world for a week, it’s okay.
You can get through it all in your own time and in your own way.
And if people don’t like it?
Tell ’em to shove it.
And so, after my own ramblings, let me leave you with Leda who is still one of my favourite Youtubers. She’s just so adorable and such a wonderful inspiration.
I hope you all have a wonderful day, whether it’s super productive or wonderful, or a revitalizing day of fifteen hours of Sons of Anarchy.[youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1hgN5DnkCzc]
And a new song for the road (because fuck hashtags and “TunesforTuesday” and schedules, everyone has too many of those).
“Blank Space” by I Prevail in Punk Goes Pop Audio Swap.
I have never liked Taylor Swift as I do right now.