My last week has been ridiculous. Nothing shorter than 13 hours a day, relocated two trailers full of binders and documents, and finally a long deserved 13 hour day.
And a bowl of ice cream.
A lot of people have been (joking) saying, “Have you ever questioned the decisions you’ve made in life to end up in this job?” I’m very proud of the fact that I am proud of my decisions, despite the shit I put up with, the trouble I get myself into, and how hard I work. Some days my work load is so full, though, that I’m on the verge of tears, but it’s such a relief that everyone seems to understand and, although they remind me of what I have to do for them, are patient and understanding and just awesome about the fact that I’m holding up work for them.
And no, I don’t question the decisions I’ve made to be where I am.
I’m a bad ass boss lady who attends meetings and pitches in ideas and is one of the first people that a lot of people come to for help. I’m wicked fast on computers and as handy as a self-taught computer snob can be. I travel the world and still have so many places to go, with so many opportunities and decisions to make with nothing holding me back.
Even though it’s shit work and we do nothing but push paper, no. I don’t regret my decisions that have taken me to where I am today.
Of course, no one gets to be where they are without things they wish they could have changed or kept, but most of the time they can be found again. Friends lost are openings for new friends and stories, old cities are memories and homes to go home to. Everything I wish I’d done are thing I have lots of time to do, and I plan to do them.
I guess what I’m trying to say is just go with it. If you’re in a shit position, find things that make your day better. I get through my day at being the best at the stupid shit people ignore. It makes me feel fabulous when people gawk at how fast I can spruce up a spreadsheet, or manipulate data into a new, better, interactive format.
.. Okay. So i like computers. But I’m also detailed oriented and can alphabetize documents like its nobody’s business.
Just be there. Forget yesterday and forget tomorrow, those are things to only worry about every once in a while. I believe that the little decisions all add up and eventually point you to where you need to go. It will work itself out to the way it should be, and how it will become.
Just relax and go with the flow.
And be awesome, while you’re at it.
Scripts Used: Dusted (Purple) by danielle-lee